Non-adult

Many people my age have been admitted into various universities and colleges all over Malaysia last May. For those who are lucky enough to get a scholarship, they are either waiting for their turn by the end of June or early July. The luckier ones have already been sent overseas. As for me, I'm still waiting.

No. I'm not those who are fortunate enough to secure a scholarship. I'm enrolling in Uniten this September simply because my parents don't want me to miss two weeks of class due to my umrah trip if I entered last May. To add to my worthlessness, my parents are paying which makes me feel so helpless and non-independent.

It's true. I envy them for getting scholarships. I even envy them for being called for an interview. Even with 9 As, no one wanted to give me what I wanted. Not even an interview. So, I owe a lot to my parents. Thus, making me feel more useless. I need to get out of my brother's shadow.

While waiting for September to show up, I applied for a job as a promoter at Parkson. Fortunately, I got the job in the children's department. I may not talk much. People tell me that I'm friendly and I can easily make new friends. But why am I still having lunch all by myself?

However, the experience there for the past 5 days have been quite splendid. It's just heart-warming to see children's different behaviour. Whatever it is, I'm going to make my 2 months shift there worth it.